Any different.

As much i hate emotion...i give it my all
devotion...
display it every line, extreme consciousness at the
 drop of a dime, falling into Change...
In me...
I
M


hoping you get a quote from atleast one line...
Rhyme with reason....Reason without rhyme in my own pattern...
cause i hate structure..so i make mine work.... mind work...digging for diamonds...coal mine work....
let experiences show...clock work...cause time is  the only answer to growth...
Steady....pace...
like the maker...
heart replacer....
which direction ....
i dont know...thats why I search ..travel
New discoveries ....unravel....
Hidden truths....buried within life's gravel..


I
M


on some soul search....Trying to figure
why we make things complicated...
When certain things should just be...
Like how I question marriage...cause people don't have answers why men cheat....
simple it goes against instinct....like telling a carnivore not to eat meat...
It can be controlled.....but it seems like the ticker is weak...
I've become an athiest.....but i still believe..
There is something more ....beyond what we see....
or this could be it and i wouldn't feel..


any different...

Some thoughts put together...

I thought my lungs had wings, ready to fly,
 Exhale out.....so my words can sore....
Further more...so my thoughts can explore...Your..
Mind...
I say your mind...cause i get tired of mine...


how about i live through you....
get lost in your equations...and in your shoes...
whether it be...Jordan's or Jimmy choo's....
elegant but the "hood" still in you....
i'd allow you to choose...


Race doesn't matter....cause Im in this for the long run,
Cross Country
Discriminate? Who?
No one's perfect,
Flawless...
Try to show me someone ...
its pretty evident there are none...


All the women dont have the same name,Label
Just a bunch of asses but they all different sizes....
Like life....
Just bunch stories but they all different covers....
sheets...
that blanket underlying plots....
schemes....
but all connect our beginnings from one scene...
.
..Mother...May I....Africa...say ....I....
I and I Jah know...
I'm just off on tangents.... low-key rambling...
rumbling in the jungle..
.but its more like gambling....
since the paint is peeling..
when the chips are down
tryna  lose all feeling.
Novocaine.... Novocaine....
Numb Me Now....

Just A Current Rant of Mind

      I woke up this morning thinking that life is just a paradox, because it is essentially. We exist in a world  where things  contradict themselves ,where time is something that we as humans or a society have created. In my opinion majority of the things man has created are both good and bad, but has only seemed to make life more complicated than it should be. I say that because if we go back to our basic way of thinking ; survival, eat,excrete,sleep,be active,reproduce.Things (in my opinion) are simple and less of a headache.  I say this because when remove all the confusion man has put into the equation, I find a certain peace. My thoughts over the years have been uncontrollable for the most part due to things like religion and trying to figure out what to do in order to survive in the society that has been created on earth. 
         I've bounced back and forth countless of times whether to believe in a "God", "Deity", what have you  only to wreck my brain by the overwhelming thoughts. Reason they were overwhelming because I was trying to factor in why certain "things" would happen to me , why they happened, if they changed or altered whats ahead of me in a positive or negative way, because I couldn't fit an explanation for them. With certain situations taking place it started to change my view of life as well as knowing that there is soo much more to us than what we know.  
         For some reason when i read this line " God is not going to do for you what you can do for yourself" plenty of things began to just make sense because, we all have the tools to do what we need for ourselves, it just how we deal with others in those positions to help you achieve and your will to get what you deserve (in your opinion/perception).   Which brings me to my new formed conclusion of how to deal with this term called "life". We are here for an allotted period and we need make the most of  what it is we are put here to do/function. Know that humans are a species type of animal, just more conscious, so being aware of  as much as possible is a must. Beings that are dominant to different degrees are going to survive while those who are not, won't. 
       Aspects of life nowadays have become more like chess because decisions are weighed more heavily with this evolution of "being". My younger brother closest to the age I am put it best for me " Just when I think my body has been put through the worst conditions, I've always been able to push through, and find that I can endure more,more, and even more" this applies to every facet of  being human, so I'm just going to push until i cant push no more...explore until I can't explore no more...just be until my physical can't be no more.


Hopefully if you read this you were able to pull something out of it and made things less stressful on your mind...or if not..it was something for you read...explore...think about..etc..


until next time.....peaaccceeee
- Reeves

The Air You Breathe Audio!!!!

Audio to What Im Thinking Now!!

What Im Thinking Now.....

A New Wall...No words, let the silence talk....thought about IT....IT says alot..
take my time....Instead of going faster...
means im going 
slower
moving backwards..


This aint how suppose to be...if its meant....
so im gonna change directions..as i repent...
lord i know its a thin line between lust and love...
but im tired of being the 
"one" 
who mixes them up...


I guess im better at Writing instead of texting....or even Calling...
but im just venting....
i stay bottled up....no champagne...
its just a champ's pain
No victory inside...Just my emotion' slain..
But Its all about perception,
Be careful, what you percieve, 
not talking to anyone indirectly...
not even directly....
Just capturing these last scenes....filmmaker...directing...


thoughts on abandon
 jet ...
they are just ejecting...
out of mind ....
continuously reflecting...
staring at the sky 
 lying down soul searching...
these Bi-polar moments...


something like a spit person...
Im two things at once....
like Dying while living....
Paradigm Pain activates a different side of my being...
imagining my muse...and what she be thinking...


Let me guess...you thinking its you....
Nah...well maybe it could be....maybe it cant....
Sorry for the ignorant grammar... its not correct...
flip the coin of life...you choose the chance....is
that my thoughts all over...



I know where my heart is...
just need my mind to find it...

If change is constant....then why do some people stay the same?
the Time that has past
 I only got colder....
Cause its not just the world....Its the people who mold her..


Time stops for no one...tried my hardest to hold it..
so I can catch up....
I'm feeling older...than my age presents...
Sometimes i just wish....i was the asshole....and that i didnt care...
cause they smash girl / leave em alone/act like nothing was there..
I put my pride in this shit...words that come out..
my mouth 
w/out hesitation or doubt....
but thats what gets me in trouble...
Cassa Nova lines done doubled...
Still there are no complaints ...
but you'll  soon find out
that im slowly going insane...and to all my new readers
every line is my vein...
Take a look at my previous
works...
These are  slits of how ingenious ....
hurts

The Happiest Day( The Makings Of A Narrative)

                  Third time this week I've been awaken by these bad dreams. The same cry from a child who is in a crib and when i pick it up, it turns into a pool of blood. A cold sweat tattoos my forehead as if  I'd been running a marathon on the hottest day in July.The air conditioner is still making that rattling noise as usual and the ceiling fan still wooshing over my bed. Starting to feel even worse about the decision that Dayna and I made but we've discussed it over several times before. I remember it as clear as day, driving  to the doctor's office with this exciting yet nervous energy. I knew in my heart that it was going to smooth sailing from that day forth on 

until we got hit with the heaviest blow to our lives within seconds. 
" I'm sorry," Doc said.

"Sorry..because," I said. "There is a chance that if she has the baby, she will die or the baby will die in her within weeks" My jaw dropped and I start thinking this guy has to be fucking with me. I look over at Dayna and the expression on her face seemed lifeless due to the awful news. I thought she had given up on everything because of these unfortunate circumstances.