"BLOWN AWAY"- REEVES PRESS PLAY & RIDE THE WAVE!!! #CSMG

REEVES UPDATE!!!!! Life's a Movie Presents!!

aLiGnMeNt...

Deep in the deep end I swim in EMOTIONs

Well, It depends....whether or not I want the intensity of being in her to deepen
Hold my breath.....Close my eyes.....
Allowing them to soak in me with each STROKE
Every dive...

and...
And...
Just sink so i STAYsubmerged
allowing the uncertainty of how to control them
to overwhelm me....
Engulf me....


Emotions

The warmth of these waters feel like a PASSION...
too much for me to adhere....
too much for me to REGISTER....
too much for me to contain...

I must come up for air...
or I'll BUST.
Staying in her love meant
I'd never BREATHE again.

So I swim....
UP as..
Bubbles of perplexed bliss leave my nostrils..
letting go of what understanding I thought I had..
in those MOMENTS 

whatever i felt....i LEFT in those moments...
only to realize when i came back to my life's 
surface....
 that I was nowhere near ready for her....
to serve PURPOSE...

Since I LACKED...
Alignment....

Thoughts of She......

I'm just Dr.Jekyll'n so i can hide my emotions, Plastered, wasted, captured, hasty when it comes to women,
my weakness, my hunger, but the way i court should be outlawed for the hearts that I've slaughtered...
dying for something they believed in martyr.  These traits I've received due the sins of my father....as nice as I've tried to be with these no relationships,titles, the women I come across minds stuck on David's Bridal....with baby stroller dreams...for their friends they idol. Well those whose life seemed to pan out right...good jobs...nice house...2 whips...good price..one husband...one wife...
Then these visions come back to me like...
when we....can we....how long...how come...why not....come on......losing patience....the horn
goes off....like the end of 1st quarter...
I respond with the We'll sees.....my routes....different journey....don't doubt's.....only time will tell's....I'm just tryna be real....is this too much for you to handle....
no one wants to hear it though...everyone wants it now..... i'm like how....when I'm tryna figure it out...get those pieces together so baby slowwww down.....        

Fulfill It

Yea.... I'm starting a new journey, 

who knew'd music be the one calling, 

me....

Making progress quite rapidly,

Like if this was my destiny.

So, I ran into Trife did some music with him....

Then I ran into Lance...where this chapter begins...

Use my voice and his pen let the sparking commence!

Got some hits on our hands like we been fighting lyrics for soo long!

Hooks so hard, it leaves ear drums mangled!

Melody so sweet, ya girl clothes dismantled! 

First show out of the state....maaaan, I couldn't believe this....

Wishing Mendoza was here to see his

grandson perform liiiiiivvveee! 

its Ya blood in my veins that got me musically inclined....

for that i thank you every-time, i sing a verse....i spit a bar...

I touch a stage or grace a mic...

Crazy how life works when it come these things....

when ya chest touching ground 

and you down on luck..

God's ya reason to push-up 

never quit or give up...

Remembering all of the times when I was restless as hell/

Pacing back and forth  like a tiger in cell/

Took every cell in me not to end it all/

pause...I got issues..

Pardon my mentaaallllll....

Understanding you can only give trust as far as you can throw it,

Done being heroic since Apathy has developed.

Stopped putting others in front of me

cause a niggas discontent grows and blossoms envy

doing anything to devise your demise

Just watch ya back and think critical

to keep the bullshit to minimal.

So much to take in and even though I know the least,

the fear of failing keep pushing me

 to newer heights

Another bite, then i will have swallowed my pride....

Only to perpetuate the leader bubbling inside..

Starting realize my role in this picture....my only outcome is to win...

From NY to NJ, From NC to the A, From The A to Bay......I gotta kill it....

I gotta kill it.....I gotta Killl it...

Cause if i don't I hope the angel's take back my spirit....

that's ONLY if I can't fulfill it. 

-Reeves

Don't Read The Whole Thing...

I think about it every night.....every minute, millisecond that I write
How much longer do I really have to fight? like a man with a knife.... in a cage with lion
Feeling like hell, when I just want reach Zion.
I may complain sometimes but I'm trying, 
When the will in me seems its like dying, I only get hungrier...
 like tapeworms in the stomach African
Back on trail to get that math again, 

(Talk to 'em!)

I look around me and see what's happening
Niggas that were Down For Life...
 turned bitch-made overnight...
is it Envy that you feeling? Speak up nigga what's reason?
Mufuggah, I'm struggling too! let me guess....
want me to be worst off than you!
Well, it aint gonna  happen!
Thank you for getting rid of ya self,no clapping,
Matter of fact, Pardon my back! 

 (Talk to 'em!)

hahahha, my bad readers...I'm venting...
I don't do that pretend thing...
Smile in ya face, then when your turn away, set flames to ya name...
Enemies stay the same but friends they change,
I don't mean to be cliche...but I'm just saying, that this saying never been so apparent
til right now...

and this is just the beginning...when the future comes I hope its no killing...
No clips my way, Lord willing...
unless its a track that i'm singing
 Over, going under with the harmonies...
Getting girls moist like home-made brownies...hahaha 

(Get personal!)

Talks of losing the house cause of Sallie Mae
Put me between razors and a sharp place
Its cutting me down to size
Starting to chop up my pride
gotta do this on my own
even it means be alone, til i make it
sacrifice making
ME....
Measure myself during these trials
God only tests the best cause its
worth the while....
and i get it...

(End it!)

Even though i get distraught at times 
Even Become distant, 
Cause I don't want to pull loved ones in to this shit
Know that I'm still here
You'll see me when I come up for air.

ReaLity Mic-Check....

You get tired of living for the moments of right now, when you want them to last forever....
check the weather...
Cumulus Clouds that i'm sitting on....
thinking about life feeling like it gonna storm...
going from white...
 then turning into gray
hasn't even been a  minute, my hands started shake..
after i read one Psalm....139:23


I was told to it was powerful so i had see...
what happens..
Action...Action....
Palms hot, mind heavy
feeling like God bout to break My levy..
allow all the self-pain to leak out...
 cause i been drowning myself ..trying reach out..
but forgiving me was the ball and chain...tied my to ankles
something i refused to do until i "MADE" 
it


all the hearts that I broke..Promises too...All the lies that i told....
all the things that i hid..Are you Listening dude?Convincing myself this the life that chose...and if I'm the only one, please cast ya stones....Really...Really?


who am i kidding....
I am sin...
I guess this what it means to be human...Free will....
like that shit was in jail...
Flesh vs. Spirit ,which one will prevail...
 They are the  ying and yang.....coexisting 
it aint nothing about G-Thang...G is Good...


The more  i realize....about this real life...the position
i'm put in, For the things that I'm putting,
 for my mind to absorb...Guess thats why i picked up the bible
Cause i was lacking accord....


Trying my hardest to look to future to see a reward through all these battle scars...
its hard to do when you stand from afar....
some I inflicted...by mistakes...but its part of the process...
i guess... hope that i use them right...the lessons i learned...
if something's too hot, you will get burned...


If you in a line, you gotta wait your turn....
If you not aligned, you better make adjustments...
or get left by your loves...cause they'll be ready to jump...
ship....


leave you, abandon......
cant afford to be alone..
 getting it right the first time son....
People steady ask-on....
Where im going? 
Im hoping and wishing 
Every-time that i step to the mic like frat.. to sing my soul out...
that i continue to see the light...
through my expressions...


of this Reality Mic-Check