You get tired of living for the moments of right now, when you want them to last forever....
check the weather...
Cumulus Clouds that i'm sitting on....
thinking about life feeling like it gonna storm...
going from white...
then turning into gray
hasn't even been a minute, my hands started shake..
after i read one Psalm....139:23
I was told to it was powerful so i had see...
what happens..
Action...Action....
Palms hot, mind heavy
feeling like God bout to break My levy..
allow all the self-pain to leak out...
cause i been drowning myself ..trying reach out..
but forgiving me was the ball and chain...tied my to ankles
something i refused to do until i "MADE"
it
all the hearts that I broke..Promises too...All the lies that i told....
all the things that i hid..Are you Listening dude?Convincing myself this the life that chose...and if I'm the only one, please cast ya stones....Really...Really?
who am i kidding....
I am sin...
I guess this what it means to be human...Free will....
like that shit was in jail...
Flesh vs. Spirit ,which one will prevail...
They are the ying and yang.....coexisting
it aint nothing about G-Thang...G is Good...
The more i realize....about this real life...the position
i'm put in, For the things that I'm putting,
for my mind to absorb...Guess thats why i picked up the bible
Cause i was lacking accord....
Trying my hardest to look to future to see a reward through all these battle scars...
its hard to do when you stand from afar....
some I inflicted...by mistakes...but its part of the process...
i guess... hope that i use them right...the lessons i learned...
if something's too hot, you will get burned...
If you in a line, you gotta wait your turn....
If you not aligned, you better make adjustments...
or get left by your loves...cause they'll be ready to jump...
ship....
leave you, abandon......
cant afford to be alone..
getting it right the first time son....
People steady ask-on....
Where im going?
Im hoping and wishing
Every-time that i step to the mic like frat.. to sing my soul out...
that i continue to see the light...
through my expressions...
of this Reality Mic-Check
