Wednesday, April 10, 2013

aLiGnMeNt...

Deep in the deep end I swim in EMOTIONs

Well, It depends....whether or not I want the intensity of being in her to deepen
Hold my breath.....Close my eyes.....
Allowing them to soak in me with each STROKE
Every dive...

and...
And...
Just sink so i STAYsubmerged
allowing the uncertainty of how to control them
to overwhelm me....
Engulf me....


Emotions

The warmth of these waters feel like a PASSION...
too much for me to adhere....
too much for me to REGISTER....
too much for me to contain...

I must come up for air...
or I'll BUST.
Staying in her love meant
I'd never BREATHE again.

So I swim....
UP as..
Bubbles of perplexed bliss leave my nostrils..
letting go of what understanding I thought I had..
in those MOMENTS 

whatever i felt....i LEFT in those moments...
only to realize when i came back to my life's 
surface....
 that I was nowhere near ready for her....
to serve PURPOSE...

Since I LACKED...
Alignment....