My Project is gooing....My Random thought

Soooo for this project....I projected it to be done in june....but I've realized you cant put a deadline on creativity...so i'm just going to go with the flow as usual...when i do finish it...I know you'll love it..... Then I ask myself "what would life be without my muse,nothing special" Now, when i ask this question...it comes with immense emotions and allows for my work....to be that much more potent...much more felt...with the time that has past and learning myself more each day...One of The things that drives me right now...That  I hunger for more than anything is a Love I can keep....Ive come to realize that I'm a serial lover....if thats even possible...so with that being said that means that with everything i touch, I crush all because of myself....so Essentially, when it comes to things like that I'm my worst enemy...And I'm starting to accept  the fact that I'm incapable of achieving that....at this point in my life...hopefully in the future...hopefully....and as for Karma because of my actions, I don't believe shes a bitch....she's just fair...I just hope i put out enough positive energy for her not to kick me my dik too hard...lol....But this project is going to be phenomenal due to energy i putting in ... and I'm continuing to learn with each producer that i work with...with each instrumental....i key in on... starting to feel like this is the only relationship...that I haven't effed up on. sad..sad..sad..lol but that could be my craziness/ cause i not all there.....
this is a rare blog...im writing now... just know I owe you for alot that cant be explained a growth that couldnt have been achieved w/o you....Thank you reader....and thank you readers..... like ive said before Im not going to  disappoint....and there is soo many things happening in my life setting me up for that big moment...which ill share eventually...until then...keep anticipating.... keep living...keep growing....keep being a human...and enjoy it..Positive Vibes....all day everyday...

Ill hit yall up with some more poetry soon...just been really focusing on my music...